This has happened ever since I've had a blog--all the way back in the dark ages of livejournal. I inevitably quit for months at a time, usually in the summer.
I'm not going to bother with a long "summer catch up" post, because that would take too long. Yes, we had a GREAT summer, but we can catch up on that later.
Over the past few months, I've kept quiet here in the great land of the internet because I had a lot of things on my mind. Just how much do I want to share? The nagging feeling of hurting friends and family members by writing what I felt was always in the back of my head as I drafted my posts. I knew my voice wasn't truthfully coming through, and I hate feeling censored. But I think I have it sorted it out in my head and in my heart, so here it goes:
We stuck it out until the end of the school year at the school that almost broke my little boy's spirit (and mine too). I didn't keep it a secret why we weren't coming back. We got a second opinion on his PDD-NOS diagnosis, but nothing changed. It's probably best that way, honestly. Remember how he's a perfectionist? Giftedness was hinted at, but it's too early to really discuss those type of things. He has a BSC (Behavioral services consultant), a TSS (therapeutic support staff), and a new school that is much more equipped to support all types of children.
The best thing that has happened for ME in the past few months has to be the formation of a "Special Moms Support Group." Moms that I already knew--through preschool or various other places--get together once or twice a month, have dinner, vent, discuss what's going on with our kids and bounce ideas off one another. The sad truth that I've learned though? When going through the invisible disability journey, it's inevitable that we lose friends. It's happened to each and every one of us. There's no rhyme or reason to it, but it happens. People just disappear.
I'm glad to close that chapter of our lives. The unknown. The anxious pit in my stomach as I drove to pick my 4 year old up three days a week. Although there is still so much unknown in a new school--new friends, new faces, new routines--I feel confident having a support system in place. For all of us.